one through nine

again

i relapsed
again

i needed
to feel
again

i had
to follow
my mind
again

i tried
but i
messed up
and hurt myself
again

im sorry
that i
cannot say
anything
but i relapsed
again

i can
only think
about how
i hurt
my body
and progress
again

i don't
know how
to think of
anything but
how i
made myself
hurt
again


i need
to do
anything
but sit
here and
think about
how i
hurt myself
again