i think i am still happy even though i know how the story truly ends

i think i now need help
but i do not know where to go

recovery was there as quickly
as it left again

i cannot turn to bojack horseman
because now i know how it ends

i know the ending but not the
final journey it took to get there

i think this ending through healing
is what is keeping me alive

i know a relapse is just me
rewatching the first season

and that recovery is the
progression to season 5

i guess i am content knowing
how the story ends

if i know in the end
everything might just be alright

i'm still happy not knowing how this story truly ends

i still find myself wondering if
i will ever seek help

i do not need it as much now
i think i finally am actually recovering

but i still do not want to know how it ends
i do not want to see bojack horseman get

better before i truly have
i do not want to see the characters almost

resolve their plotlines before i even
get the chance to figure out mine

maybe this was the point of the end,
to get you thinking about why you haven't

reached your final course to happiness
when the parts of you on the screen have