blurry

 

i thought i had gotten past it

i thought i had accepted it

but i apparently have not

i had a dream about you again

you still don't have a clear face

but the assault is always clear

and i hate saying it allowed

but i am so tired of living in fear

that i will never be able to love 

spoon theory

i didn't want to want to leave the party 

or cancel the plans again

i didn't plan on going so soon

i just ran out of spoons

weakening

 

i thought i was past

the worst of it

but as always

it came back

but stronger

and there is only

so much strength

i can muster

to make it go away