body forgive me, eating forgive me.

 i still cannot forgive myself

and i do not know why

my friends do not know about my eating disorder

it was never serious enough

i'm sorry that i was never small enough to be anything but a success story

i was just a glow up story.

i still am.

no one believes me

except my other plus sized friend

i am healthier now than i ever was a size 14

and even then

i was still the largest person in the room